Predeployment Countdown- 3 Weeks

I have 21 days till my dear husband leave for his year in the "where ever the hell they send him". We arent seeming to connect as we usually do. It could be the fact that I believe that I myself am pulling away from him a little. I ask myself if that is it or if its just the fact that it is getting to be "that time".
Seeing as I have a three month old, my hormones are barely getting into a rythm here and so I could just be suffering from the age old PMS. But a part of me believes that it is that I am pulling away. I seem to be throwing all my time in other stuff. Like I am in some dire need to get all my preocuppants up and running before he leaves so I can be distracted for 12 months.
Just today I have cleaned the house, planned two cakes for upcoming events, started my baking business website, made my business cards, made sure all spouses got their pics from a predeployment picture party I just threw Saturday and planned the next one for six months.
I feel like I am being distant and I dont mean to be, I dont want to be. I wish I could just crawl in his arms and never leave them. Twentyone days. It seems so close and this time its because it is so close. I know I can make it through, but this isnt gonna be easy.
I would love to lean on friends, family and church people, but friends are few and although I do have one army wife who I am close with, it leaves me wondering if one is enough. Church family isnt a word used in our home. My daughter is into church and so I am on the hunt for a church she can become a part of and maybe I can visit here and there. Family is far between. My mom lives over 40 miles south of me and my mother in law is 75 miles (about) North of me.
I am here watching my husband play on our new wii fit that we bought today. He is trying to loose 10 pounds in two weeks. I need to loose a billion, but I have a little longer to do so.
So to add to my todo list for deployment I have some projects in mind.
Project one is to clean out the garage. It isnt done from the move. I have a year to empty it and get it in working useful condition for my husband when he gets home.
Project two is to get back in tune with my spiritual routine. I am all over the place. SInce being pregnant with my son I havent practiced in about a year I would say. Its time for me to get myself in shape spiritually as well as physically, which leads me to ...
Project three. Loose weight and get in shape. Great shape. Like loose 60 pounds. I need to do so in a year so how i figure it if i loose 10 pounds a month and then six months to keep it off. That should work.
Project four is my business, get it good and going more so then it is now.
Well thats all for todays blog. Need to jump on the wii for a while and get some WE time with the husband. I have a year to blog anyway and can use the time i have left with him right. Isnt that what I should be doing. I think I am going through those stupid stages that I said I wouldnt go through. I love him so much and yet here I am pulling away. i am such an idiot